fuck this. i've been trying so hard to step away from that bottomless hole. it took me so long to convince myself it was ok. i could get better. and all it takes is one stupid comment from an asshole (who means it) and i go spiralling all the way to the bottom again. contrary to what everyone says. maybe that asshole's telling the truth, it seems rather repeated anyway. from different people even. and all i hear now are those words echo-ing in my head. it so damn easy to step off the cliff and fall down the slippery slope and never get up.

i don't think anyone will ever understand the constant struggle. its gonna break me one day.

the other side looks incredibly tempting at this point in time.

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